Monday, October 23, 2006
time for truth
these few weeks have been a nightmare to me...
i have been doing a lot of thinking. i was thinking about my childhood, my decision for my university courses, Christian life, and many more. i have been bored, and lively, and then bored again, and then lively again... well, it's really up and down.
all of that are crap, aren't they?
well, i really want to cry now... and it's not about drama, my drama friends... i just want to cry because i keep on hiding these feelings from other people a lot... now, i have so much inside of me that i don't know how to pour all of them...
the biggest thing i know that makes me so depressed is that i just realised how much i missed the people i'm missing: my parents, my tk friends... i really can't wait for january...
and there's just one song lyrics i love very much: it's truly inspirational...
i have been doing a lot of thinking. i was thinking about my childhood, my decision for my university courses, Christian life, and many more. i have been bored, and lively, and then bored again, and then lively again... well, it's really up and down.
all of that are crap, aren't they?
well, i really want to cry now... and it's not about drama, my drama friends... i just want to cry because i keep on hiding these feelings from other people a lot... now, i have so much inside of me that i don't know how to pour all of them...
the biggest thing i know that makes me so depressed is that i just realised how much i missed the people i'm missing: my parents, my tk friends... i really can't wait for january...
and there's just one song lyrics i love very much: it's truly inspirational...
"now i run" by shannon noll
tell me how the circle ends
there's no beginning
everything that came before
will come round again
and i look in the mirror
my fathers eyes look back at me
he gave me a road to choose
he gave me freedom
and i pray i'm strong enough
to walk in his shoes
and i hope that i become
half the man he'd want me to be
'cause i feel you guiding me
showin' me the way when i'm misdirected
i know your not here but i feel connected
[chorus]
'cause everything that i am
comes from a better man
and all that i've said and done
can't rewrite my history
right there for all to see
i'm just my fathers son
taught me to walk, now i run
now i run
sometimes when i lose myself
in my weakness
i can feel the touch of his
unmistakable hands
and they're pushing me forward
back into the circle again
and i hope my son sees in me
the kind of man that he was to me
[Chorus]
and everything that i am
comes from a better man
and all that i've said and i've done
can't rewrite my history
right there for all to see
i'm just my fathers son
taught me to walk, now i run
i run
tell me how the circle ends
there's no beginning
everything that came before
will come round again
and i look in the mirror
my fathers eyes look back at me
he gave me a road to choose
he gave me freedom
and i pray i'm strong enough
to walk in his shoes
and i hope that i become
half the man he'd want me to be
'cause i feel you guiding me
showin' me the way when i'm misdirected
i know your not here but i feel connected
[chorus]
'cause everything that i am
comes from a better man
and all that i've said and done
can't rewrite my history
right there for all to see
i'm just my fathers son
taught me to walk, now i run
now i run
sometimes when i lose myself
in my weakness
i can feel the touch of his
unmistakable hands
and they're pushing me forward
back into the circle again
and i hope my son sees in me
the kind of man that he was to me
[Chorus]
and everything that i am
comes from a better man
and all that i've said and i've done
can't rewrite my history
right there for all to see
i'm just my fathers son
taught me to walk, now i run
i run
God bless you all!
